my dream

Days are passing like a running Water,
Still I can’t find a way through it any farther.
Life has so much to give and take,
I still feel like I’m not awake.
I have a dream to achieve and accomplish one day,
Fulfilling that dream is the only thing I pray.
For making my dream come to reality,
I need to strive hard and then enjoy its futility.
I am praying to God to give me strength for achieving my goal,
I’ll definitely try hard which makes me a peaceful soul.

loose weight

I am blogging not to complain or self pity but with hope that in future, I would read back this to remind myself how pretty x100 hard losing weight is, for someone who cannot resist food like me.

After several trials of different methods over the past years, I ' successfully' gained more weights. Then I sit back and admit I have not been serious enough.

Though I was true to myself last month (Jan), I only manage to lose 500g which weakening my determination. Seems like all the efforts going down to drain.

What I have done :
1. Reading on HOW from internet, newspaper, books.
2. Trying out detoxing by fasting (it caused me dizziness and have to take sick leave)
3. A glass of fruit juice / lime juice a day.
4. Fruits for breakfast and dinner (still constipation).
5. Exercise more than usual
6. Drinking plenty of green tea (till insomnia at night).
7. Extra one piece of bread into the mouth need to do extra sit up and cycling before sleep.
:-(

the fruitfull traintrip

i guess it was on march 16th or so...wen i met my friend in train in calcut while going to trichur..i should say i was a fruitful trip in my life ever..!!
i felt like the scence in vinnaithandi varuvaya where shimbu and trisha and travelling from allepey to chennai..the connection to this is that the person was also travelling to chennai;)we talked a lot..! we were just talking n talking had a cup of coffee , as u all know i am a cofee addict;)we laughed a lot discussing things..i just thot of it today morning i felt bad i am missing that person :(
time just flewed away like a wind...!! i was just praying the train should delay or get stuck some where etc..!! alas my prayers didnt work..shornor reached so fast i got down said bye and caught another train and came back to trichur..!

missing chennai

i am missing chennai like crasy i should say..i am specially missing amethyst.. thats the place i love in the whole chennai..!! its a calm place with quiet good ambeince..its in gopalapuram near sathyam theater..!!i specially love the brunch in amthyst..!!its like saluting its amorphous nature, may we just say that hidden within the walls of Sundar Mahal lies this beautiful house that has a boutique store, an open-air café, and a florist shop.
Amethyst is all these and more where many a Sunday afternoon can be spent lazing with a book and a tall glass of iced tea. What’s more, Amethyst also serves up delightful Sunday brunches..!
Once done, you can leisurely order for cup of coffee or masala chai that comes steaming hot in a stone mug.

When you are done with the meal, give the boutique a run through, or maybe pick out a bouquet of pretty flowers for your friend.

Amethyst is not a place, it’s an experience. Live it, you'll love it.

hey

i know its been long since i blogged..! didnt feel like bloging was busy doing dis dat etc...guess i wud b active again :P

dream guy

..gosh i cant believ i saw my dream guy sterday ..i cant believ it...person who comes in my dreams...unbelivable.. felt like i am watching a movie...dreams do come true... un believable...

:)

Saari umar hum
Mar mar ke jee liye
Ek pal to ab humein jeene do
Jeene do

Saari umar hum
Mar mar ke jee liye
Ek pal to ab humein jeene do
Jeene do

Saari umar hum
Mar mar ke jee liye
Ek pal to ab humein jeene do
Jeene do

Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Kandhon ko kitabon
Ke bojh ne jhukaya
Rishvat dena to khud
Papa ne sikhaya
99% marks laaoge to ghadi, varna chhadi

Likh likh kar pada hatheli par
Alpha, beta, gamma ka chaala
Concentrated H2SO4 ne poora
Poora bachpan jalaa daala

Bachpan to gaya
Jawani bhi gayi
Ek pal to ab humein
Jeene do jeene do

Bachpan to gaya
Jawani bhi gayi
Ek pal to ab humein
Jeene do jeene do

Saari umar hum
Mar mar ke jee liye
Ek pal to ab humein jeene do
Jeene do

Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….
Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….

:)

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

the new year

The new year has arrived. It is now year 2010. Well..i did not celebrate it at all last night and i also did not have anything planned for it. In fact i slept early after The phone kept receiving new year's sms from people i know. I just glanced thru the messages to know who sent all the messages and then fell back to sleep. New Year celebration does not excite me anymore...i just don't fancy all the fireworks displays and all the singings on TV. Kinda boring..
Hmm...my new year resolution. Have not been thinking of a single one yet. I just want to stay healthy, eat well, be nice to my parents, be happy, having frequent vacations and perhaps meet someone nice and compatible with me. Last year was a bad experience for me, spent the early part of the year in the hospital bed
One highlight of the year was i went to kulumanali my dream place...and that gave me a incident i can never forget ever in my entire life...phew...i wished i shouldnt have gone there nor i did my mba in cbe...i am not going to speak more about that...hope that this year turns to be good..insha alla..keeping my fingers crossed

the magic words

As we grow up, we learn so many new, different things, gain knowledge and one day, we may become All That. But its important not to forget the little things that we were taught, because in the end, those are the things that help us.
What did your Nursery teacher tell you when you were little?
"Never forget to use the Magic Words," she said.
No matter how old you are, no matter how accomplished or learned you are, the Magic Words are the words you should never forget to use.


Its a simple concept. The Magic Words don't involve any hocus-pocus; but they are just that...magical.


Magic Word Number One:


Please


A 'please' can do wonders. A request is always much more effective than an order. A request can almost make the other person obliged to do whatever you asked them to.
And I don't think that 'please' doesn't exist in close relationships; if I want to borrow something from a person I know really well, I know that she'll give it to me, never mind that I request her or order her. But a please reminds both of us that she's the owner. That I can keep it for as long as I want and do whatever, but a request is always appreciated. In contrast to saying, "I'm taking this."
I've convinced grouchy government employees with a 'please'.
Appeal from the heart and see if you don't get it.


Magic Word Number Two:


Thanks


Now this a Magic Word people are fast forgetting to use. A 'thanks' goes a long way. After receiving the change or being let in through the door first, after a stranger hands you something that fell down or after someone holds the elevator for you, a thanks is a must. Everybody likes to feel gratified once in a while, knowing that they did something for which you're grateful to them. A thanks can make someone's day, knowing that they helped a person in whatever small way. And whoever said that thanks isn't needed in friendship, said it wrong, according to me.
Everyone likes to hear a thanks sometime or the other. Everyone.


Magic Word Number Three:


Sorry


This sorry is the most important Magic Word of them all.
When I was little, I swallowed short stories. And one little story I clearly remember.
Once there was a pine tree and a cane plant planted alongside. They were the best of friends but their personalities were very different. The pine tree was arrogant, proud of its size and strength and refused to bend in front of anyone; whereas the cane plant was humble, ready to accept his defeat if need be. The pine tree often made fun of the cane plant, how it bent easily by the softest breeze. But the cane plant just smiled; he knew that he did nothing wrong.
One day, there was a huge storm that ripped apart everything. Torrential rain and hail, thunderstorm destroyed everything. The pine tree which was too proud to bend in front of anyone was uprooted instantly; but the cane plant, a modest little thing, bent along the direction of the wind and was miraculously, saved. Saved from the storm which uprooted the gigantic pine tree.
Never be so proud that you cannot accept your defeat; never be so proud that you're unable to admit your fault; never be so proud that you can't utter a little sorry.

A sorry can melt the hardest of hearts.
Any day.

appology b4 this yr ends

"i really miss u..i have many other friends to talk but its not the same..u ve such a deep understanding of who i am and i hardly have to speak any words and u no just wat i am saying..i really miss u and i want to be sure that u no that no matter whr i go whom i meet or wat i do i will never find as deep a friendship with any1 as i have with u..."

as this yr ends i take a opprtunity to tell u sorry if i have hurt u in any way..i am sorry..

wishing u a happy new year

i found it finally

yes..i found the reason for me putting on weight...i eat when i am happy i eat when i sad i eat when i study i eat b4 gng to sleep i eat when i am bored i eat when my dad scolds me i eat when i fight wid my friends..c i am eating fulltime24*7... :(

stop

i was just praying sterday that some1 should stop the clock or time of all the watches..i needed somemore time to b spent with my loved 1 :(time indeed flies...y god y?when v need more time time flies but when v dont need it it takes more time y god y?y does that happen

28/12/2009

met some1 spl in my life...what a awesome day :)loved it

Rules for being happy...

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the bump too long. Move on! When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry as hard. You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved -- the rest is up to the other person to realize your worth. The measure of love is when you love without measures. In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love who loves you in return. So once you have it don't ever let go -- the chance might never come your way again. It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend so much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give. When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults and you overlook excuses. Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his or her place. Friendship is like wine. It gets better as it grows older. Remember the five simple rules to being happy: Free your heart of hatred. Free your mind from worries. Live simply. Give more. Expect less. No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. The people we are in relationship with are always a mirror, reflecting our own beliefs,and simultaneously we are mirrors, reflecting their beliefs.So... relationship is one of the most powerful tools for growth....If we look honestly at our relationships,we can see so much about how we have created them.

love

The more you love, the more you can love--- And the more intensely you love. Nor is there any limit on how many you can love - ROBERT HEINLEIN -

"Love is in the air" That's what John Paul Young said in his lyric. Love strikes when we fall in love to someone deeply. It's such a beautiful and indescribable feeling that you can imagine in your whole life. The euphoria tangled every feeling that you have, it simply drives you crazy where at one point you will do anything to win that person's heart no matter what happen. We can't deny that it comes by naturally and it makes you feel alive. Love doesn’t count on how old are you or whether you’re available on that time. It’s weird when you call someone in the middle of the night telling them how much you miss them until you just can’t get a good sleep. Yes it’s weird when you are madly in love with someone because it makes you so emotional and fragile. It gives you the boost to be out of your control when you’re jealous, angry, aesthetic, sad and joy.
Getting along is another different stage in a relationship that requires an understanding, sacrificing, trust, commitment and unconditional love. When two individual have these kind of values, it simply leads them the key to happiness. A beginning of a relationship seems to be like a sweet honey that everything is almost perfect. We never have the gut to hurt each other or create a fight. That’s what we call love is in the air when we don’t see the weaknesses of each other and claim it to be as heaven’s blessing. Love is weird and the next thing that you want to do is to stay loyal, build a perfect family and love that person for the rest of your life. Love can change the way you are without realizing it because you’re willing to do anything and you’re enjoying every changes that you have. When a woman loves a man, she will do anything to make his man happy at every moment and preserve it with her whole heart. She will ensure that his man will get the best from what she had because he deserve to have everything from her.

i miss u

I just can't get him out of my mind and I feel unfair because it seems like it's so easy for him to live without me. I hate myself of missing him every moment he's away from me. I wish there's a medicine to forget someone temporary or to make you in control of being in love. If it happens for you to know this medicine, simply contact my friend . I feel weird when he's not around and I'm craving for him as if I will never see him again. I hate this feeling and I wish I am less clingy. It is as if I've never see him for a long time that I keep on looking on the phone screen and waiting for him to call me saying that he miss me . If only he knows what I feel, I'm glad enough to hear that. I feel so lifeless for everything I do is because of him. I'm so super emotional today and I hate this. I love him so much.... You can say whatever you want.. If only I can forget him until he comes back to me again........lol
hows it :P
being single i dont no y i am writing all these hahaha..dont no what is making me do this?

i am becoming etra romantic since 2 months hehe..i am talking as if is my own experience hahaha..after reading my blogs my friends asked me r u in a love failure or ru in love?i said i am not in both..
these all i have kept written in my diary i am all alone..for me when i am alone the writer in me arises:P

falling slowly

I don't know youBut I want youAll the more for thatWords fall through meAnd always fool meAnd I can't reactAnd games that never amountTo more than they're meantWill play themselves outFalling slowly, eyes that know meAnd I can't go backMoods that take me and erase meAnd I'm painted blackYou have suffered enoughAnd warred with yourselfIt's time that you wonTake this sinking boat and point it homeWe've still got timeRaise your hopeful voice you had a choiceYou've made it nowFalling slowly sing your melodyI'll sing along..

for no reason

Why do relationships come with a death wish. There is a purpose behind all that occurs, it is said but in case of a relationship going wrong, what can be the purpose? If one is willing to make the effort to keep it alive and good then why is it that this effort goes unrecognized. And if this be a pattern then can the effort sustain itself? The only purely joyous relationship in life I guess can be the one which one has with ones’ children, at least until they grow into adults and acquire the habit of sitting judgement like all others. Until then they are ready to accept you as the best parent or person in the world and all that you do for them or for your relationship with them is accepted, appreciated and rewarded in the form of the unbiased love that they give. This, perhaps, is the reason we strive all our lives, or at least most of us do, to keep them in that mould for a lifetime, as the little ones who accepted our love as pure and absolute, no questions asked or doubts raised. In all other cases, the extra baggage becomes burdensome and stifling. It is always about having to justify oneself and needing to prove how you have not done one or the other wrong/injustice. Whereas a child will accept even your wrongs as the right thing to have occurred and will still seek the love in your eyes, for all others the love gets filmed over by their own unfulfilled expectations. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could form just one relationship as innocent and non-judgemental in our lives as the one between a parent and child? Wishful thinking I guess….

its him again lol..

The door bell rings.
i come to attention for a minute and i am so excited and happy at the same time. It is my favourite time of the day. i loves opening the door for him every single evening. It gives me certain unique kind of happiness and satisfaction to do so. One more reason is i loves watching the love for me in his eyes when he sees me. His tiredness, fatigue, stress, frustration all vanishes just by looking at me. Looking at the black saree i am wearing, he thinks “how can you look so beautiful every single time I see you”
i makes way for him to come inside the house but he hardly leaves any place between the two and embraces me in his arms. This is what i was waiting for. A very gentle but passionate kiss follows. He goes into his bedroom for having a shower but shouts from there:
“What’s in for dinner tonight”, he asks. “ I’ve made your favourite dish – pasta, be quick I m just getting things ready for dinner”
“Okies!!! I’ll be quick” he shouts back.
Listening to hisfavourite song i started to prepare for the dinner, laid dishes on the table, carries few things from the fridge. He comes from behind, holds me from my waist (which wasn’t very slim but he always loved it) whispers in her ears “What was the need to make the pastas tonight darling when I have such a huge and hot dish ready in front of me”. i giggles but feels very shy and just managed to speak - “ Oh come on, I m very hungry, let me go and have dinner.
After the dinner, we cleared the dishes and as usual his cell rings (a real workaholic). i gets irritated to his boss who calls him almost thrice a day to discuss work and i have has to listen daily to those boring technical language. But it still gave me a good feeling that he worked so hard for her.
i picks up the tray of two coffee mugs and goes to the balcony where he is still talking on his cell. This is my favourite place in the whole house. The view is just awesome, the cold breeze, the lightings, the serenity, i can spend hours over here. He just finishes the talk on his cell. He asks “ hows your day been”, i replies” quite good, had a great time today, the friend I talked about last week , was here in the morning and we had a blast talking about the yester years, it was really wonderful and we both felt very nostalgic, talking about school days and everything. I insisted her to stay to meet you but she had to leave early in the noon so she left. After that I started writing again the some poem that I talked about, it is still not complete, and somehow I am taking more than my usual time on it. But plan to wrap it up soon. i asks “ hows your day been” . He started replying, going on and on and on, i was partly listening and partly thinking. When he sensed that i am not paying attention, he asked “ hey, where are you lost, whats on your mind?”. i said“nothing” and just as always, he believed me and went on with his story.But i lied. There were million things running in my mind. ithought how wonderful my life is , how caring my husband is, and how lovely home i am living in, how well everything turned out to be, those things that i dreamt of always, i said to myself “ dreams do come true” !!! what a dream..i love dreaming like kajol in ddlj"mere khwabo mein jo aaye aake mujhe ched jaye..use kaho kabi samne toh aaye:P